I've paid for your sickest fancies; I've humoured
your crackedest whim-- Not
counting the Line and the Foundry, the Yards and the village, too,
I've made myself and a million; but I'm damned if I made you.
Master
at two-and-twenty, and married at twenty-three--
Ten thousand men on
the pay-roll, and forty freighters at sea!
Fifty years between 'em,
and every year of it fight,
And now I'm Sir Anthony Gloster, dying, a
baronite:
For I lunched with his Royal 'Ighness--what was it the
papers had?
"Not the least of our merchant-princes." Dickie, that's
me, your dad!
I didn't begin with asking. I took my job and I
stuck;
I took the chances they would't, an' now they're calling it
luck.
Lord, what boats I've handled--rotten and leaky and old--
Ran
'em, or opened the bilge-cock, precisely as I was told.
Grub that 'ud
bind you crazy, and crews that 'ud turn you grey,
And a big fat lump
of insurance to cover the risk on the way.
The others they dursn't do
it; they said they valued their life
(They've served me since as
skippers). I went, and I took my wife.
Over the world I drove 'em,
married at twenty-three, And your mother saving the money and making a man
of me.
I was content to be master, but she said there was better
behind;
She took the chances I wouldn't, and I followed your mother
blind.
She egged me to borrow the money, an' she helped me to clear
the loan,
When we bought half-share in a cheap'un and hoisted a flag
of our own.
Patching and coaling on credit, and living the Lord knew
how,
We started the Red Ox freighters--we've eight-andthirty now.
And those were the days of clippers, and the freights were
clipper-freights,
And we knew we were making our fortune, but she died
in Macassar Straits--
By the Little Paternosters, as you come to the
Union Bank--and we dropped her in fourteen fathom: I pricked it off
where she sank.
Owners we were, full owners, and the boat was
christened for her,
And she died in the Mary Gloster. My heart, how
young we were!
So I went on a spree round Java and well-nigh ran her
ashore,
But your mother came and warned me and I wouldn't liquor no
more:
Strict I stuck to my business, afraid to stop or I'd think.
Saving the money (she'd warned me), and letting the other men drink.
And I met M'Cullough in London (I'd saved five 'undred then),
And
'tween us we started the Foundry--three forges and twenty men.
Cheap
repairs for the cheap 'uns. It paid, and the business grew;
For I
bought me a steam-lathe patent, and that was a gold mine too.
"Cheaper
to build 'em than buy 'em, "I said, but M'Cullough he shied,
And we
wasted a year in talking before we moved to the Clyde.
And the Lines
were all beginning, and we all of us
started fair,
;
Building our engines like houses
and staying the boilers square.
But M'Cullough 'e wanted cabins
with marble and
maple and all,And Brussels an' Utrecht velvet,
and baths and a
Social Hall,
And pipes for closets all
over, and cutting the frames too light,
But M'Cullough he died
in the Sixties, and--Well, I'm dying to-night . . .
I knew--I
knew what was coming, when we bid on the Byfleet's keel--
They
piddled and piflled with iron, I'd given my orders for steel!
Steel and the first expansions. It paid, I tell you, it paid,
When we came with our nine-knot freighters and collared the
long-run trade!
And they asked me how I did it, and I gave 'em
the Scripture text,
"You keep your light so shining a little in
front o' the next!"
They copied all they could follow, but they
couldn't copy my mind,
And I left 'em sweating and stealing a
year and a half behind.
Then came the armour--contracts, but
that was M'Cullough's side,
He was always best in the Foundry,
but better, perhaps, he died.
I went through his private
papers; the notes was plainer than print;
And I'm no fool to
finish if a man'll give me a hint.
(I remember his widow was
angry.) So I saw what his drawings meant,
And I started the
six-inch rollers, and it paid me sixty per cent.
Sixty per cent
with failures, and more than twice we could do,
And a
quarter-million to credit, and I saved it all for you!
I
thought--it doesn't matter--you seemed to favour your ma,
But
you're near forty than thirty, and I know the kind you are.
Harrer an' Trinity College! I ought to ha' sent you to
sea--
But I stood you an education, an' what have you done for
me?
The things I knew was proper you wouldn't thank me to
give,
And the things I knew was rotten you said was the way to
live.
For you muddled with books and pictures, an' china an'
etchin's an' fans,
And your rooms at college was beastly--more
like a whore's than a man's;
Till you married that thin-flanked
woman, as white and as stale as a bone,
An' she gave you for
your social nonsense; but where's that kid o' your own?
I've
seen your carriages blocking the half o' the Cromwell Road,
But
never the doctor's brougham to help the missus unload.
(So
there isn't even a grandchild, an' the Gloster family's done.)
Not like your mother, she isn't. She carried her freight each
run.
But they died, the pore little beggars! At sea she had
'em--they died.
Only you, an' you stood it. You haven't stood
much beside.
Weak, a liar, and idle, and mean as a collier's
whelp
Nosing for scraps in the galley. No help--my son was no
helP!
So he gets three 'undred thousand, in trust and the
interest paid.
I would't give it you, Dickie--you see, I made
it in trade.
You're saved from soiling your fingers, and if you
have no child,
It all comes back to the business. 'Gad, won't
your wife be wild!
'Calls and calls in her carriage, her
'andkerchief up to 'er eye:
"Daddy! dear daddy's dyin'!" and
doing her best to cry.
Grateful? Oh, yes, I'm grateful, but
keep her away from here.
Your mother 'ud never ha' stood 'er,
and, anyhow, women are queer . . .
There's women will say I've
married a second time. Not quite!
But give pore Aggie a
hundred, and tell her your lawyers'll fight.
She was the best
o' the boiling--you'll meet her before it ends.
I'm in for a
row with the mother--Ill leave you settle my friends.
~or a man
must go with a woman, which women don't understand--
Or the
sort that say they can see it, they aren't the marrying brand.
But I wanted to speak o' your mother that's Lady Gloster still;
I'm going to up and see her, without its hurting the will. Here!
Take your hand off the bell-pull. Five thousand's
waiting for
you,
If you'll only listen a minute, and do as I bid you
do.
They'll try to prove me crazy, and, if you bungle, they
can;
And I've only you to trust to! (O God, why ain't it a
man?)
There's some waste money on marbles, the same as
M'Cullough tried--
Marbles and mausoleums--but I call that
sinful pride.
There's some ship bodies for burial--we've
carried 'em, soldered and packed;
Down in their wills they
wrote it, and nobody called them cracked.
But me--I've too much
money, and people might . . . All my fault:
It comes o' hoping
for grandsons and buying that Wokin' vault . . .
I'm sick o' the
'ole dam' business. I'm going back where I came.
Dick, you're
the son o' my body, and you'll take charge o' the same!
I want
to lie by your mother, ten thousand mile away,
And they'll want
to send me to Woking; and that's where you'll earn your pay.
I've thought it out on the quiet, the same as it ought to be
done--
Quiet, and decent, and proper--an' here's your orders,
my son.
You know the Line? You don't, though. You write to the
Board, and tell
Your father's death has upset you an' you're
goin' to cruise for a spell,
An' you'd like the Mary
Glosler--I've held her ready for this--
They'll put her in
working order and you'll take her out as she is.
Yes, it was
money idle when I patched her and laid her aside
(Thank God, I
can pay for my fancies!)--the boat where your mother died,
By
the Little Paternosters, as you come to the Union Bank,
We
dropped her--I think I told you--and I pricked it off where she
sank.
('Tiny she looked on the grating--that oily, treacly
sea--)
'Hundred and Eighteen East, remember, and South just
Three.
Easy bearings to carry--Three South--Three to the
dot;
But I gave McAndrew a copy in case of dying--or not.
And so you'll write to McAndrew, he's Chief of the Maori Line;
They'll give him leave, if you ask 'em and say it's business o'
mine.
I built three boats for the Maoris, an' very well pleased
they were,
An' I've known Mac since the Fifties, and Mac knew
me--and her.
After the first stroke warned me I sent him the
money to keep
Against the time you'd claim it, committin' your
dad to the deep;
For you are the son o' my body, and Mac was my
oldest friend,
I've never asked 'im to dinner, but he'll see it
out to the end.
Stiff-necked Glasgow beggar! I've heard he's
prayed for my soul,
But he couldn't lie if you paid him, and
he'd starve before he stole.
He'll take the Mary in
ballast--you'll find her a lively ship;
And you'll take Sir
Anthony Gloster, that goes on 'is wedding-trip,
Lashed in our
old deck-cabin with all three port-holes wide,
The kick o' the
screw beneath him and the round blue seas out-side
Sir Anthony
Gloster's carriage--our 'ouse-flag flyin' free--
Ten thousand
men on the pay-roll and forty freighters at sea!
He made
himself and a million, but this world is a fleetin' show,
And
he'll go to the wife of 'is bosom the same as he ought to go--
By the heel of the Paternosters--there isn't a chance to
mistake--
And Mac'll pay you the money as soon as the bubbles
break!
Five thousand for six weeks' cruising, the staunchest
freighter afloat,
And Mac he'll give you your bonus the minute
I'm out o' the boat!
He'll take you round to Macassar, and
you'll come back alone;
He knows what I want o' the Mary ....
I'll do what I please with my own.
Your mother 'ud call it
wasteful, but I've seven-andthirty more;
I'll come in my
private carriage and bid it wait at the door . . .
For my son
'e was never a credit: 'e muddled with books and art,
And 'e
lived on Sir Anthony's money and 'e broke Sir Anthony's heart.
There isn't even a grandchild, and the Gloster family's done--
The only one you left me--O mother, the only one!
Harrer and
Trinity College--me slavin' early an' late--
An' he thinks I'm
dying crazy, and you're in Macassar Strait!
Flesh o' my flesh,
my dearie, for ever an' ever amen,
That first stroke come for
a warning. I ought to ha' gone to you then.
But--cheap repairs
for a cheap 'un--the doctors said I'd do.
Mary, why didn't you
warn me? I've allus headed to you.
Excep'--I know--about women;
but you are a spirit now;
An', wife, they was only women, and
I was a man. That's how.
An' a man 'e must go with a woman, as
you could not understand;
But I never talked 'em secrets. I
paid 'em out o' hand.
Thank Gawd, I can pay for my fancies! Now
what's five thousand to me,
For a berth off the Paternosters in
the haven where I would be?
I believe in the Resurrection, if I
read my Bible plain,
But I wouldn't trust 'em at Wokin'; we're
safer at sea again.
For the heart it shall go with the
treasure--go down to the sea in ships.
I'm sick of the hired
women. I'll kiss my girl on her lips!
I'll be content with my
fountain. I'll drink from my own pure well,
And the wife of my
youth shall charm me--an' the rest can go to Hell!
(Dickie, he
will, that's certain.) I'll lie in our standin'bed,
An' Mac'll
take her in ballast--an' she trims best by the head....
Down by
the head an' sinkin', her fires are drawn and cold,
And the
water's splashin' hollow on the skin of the ~ empty hold--
Churning an' choking and chuckling, quiet and scummy and dark--
Full-to her lower hatches and risin' steady. Hark!
That was the
after-bulkhead . . . She's flooded from stem to stern . . .
'Never seen death yet, Dickie? . . . Well, now is your time to
learn!